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Aspire to climb as high as you can dream.

I’ve always been an ambitious person. Winning awards with College Pro, Market America, buying my first property, 2nd 3rd, so on and so forth. Acquiring land in Calgary, buying properties in Vegas, and now, moving back to Asia and start a new life, which represents the biggest challenge of all.

What gets in the way of my ambition, however, is fear. I fear of being a lone, I fear of changing to a new setting. I fear of having to start everything all over again, which will require me to put down money towards a new place, furniture, and ultimately reduces my net worth.

It is so much easier to just stay in Vancouver - I have a comfortable house, a vehicle I can use, and I have my friends and network with me, to keep me entertained, to keep me occupied.

However being comfortable isn’t what I seek, at least not at this stage. I constantly remind myself that I’m young and shouldn’t live comfortably. I should be busy and occupied, productive and learning. In Vancouver, albeit its natural beauty and comfy way of life, isn’t for me right now. I need to push myself, I need to walk out to the new frontier. I need to challenge myself. I need to conquer my fear.

My fear of being alone. My fear of having a temporary reduction in my net worth. My fear of earning lower income. My fear of being in a new environment. My fear of not able to make it in the big city. My fear of leaving this awesome place.

Sum it up, my biggest fear, now as I am typing this passage, is my fear of not believing in myself. I need to conquer such fear, I need to confront to the world that I can achieve what I believe to achieve. I need to prove to myself that I am worthy of receiving what I dream. I need to face my ambition and accept the challenges that may come. I need to make a hike towards the next peak coming up.

I need to believe in myself. I need to believe in my dreams. My ambitions, for none of it is conceivable if I don’t at least confront my fear. I’m fearful, I’m afraid, and I accept such reality. But accepting is merely a first step. I know it’s in my way, and I must fight to face it.

I’ve always wondered how you fought against lonesome, how you fought against the urge of wanting more income. I’m shaping my spirituality, step by step, but it would always be helpful if I can get your advise.

My ambition, you just wait and see. I will be there. I will conquer it. Ambitions, aspire to climb as high as I can dream.

Until I sell my parents' house. 回亞洲, 拼了.