悠悠桃源 Isaiah 55:12 "For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands." ｛如欲轉載，請註明出處，thax｝

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November 18 2013

 

Raising a child requires a lot of work. A LOT.

Since my first child was born, I had resolved to want just one child in my life, absolutely.

There is no perfect life anyway. Every life has to deal with its own challenges. As parents, we can not plan or control (and should not want to) a perfect life for our future generation. As an effective and enthusiastic manager, if we can invest wholeheartedly into what we already have, we can make a great fortune—in mental and spiritual form; I am not talking about material gains. Though my friends were shocked by my determination, my husband certainly was saddened by my firm response.

 

God heard me very well, loud and clear.

Through numerous discussions with friends, strangers, and my husband, God changed my mind. So I looked at my schedule and thought to myself, “Great, if the timing works out well, this can save us trouble from scheduling maternity leave and soliciting helpers during the postpartum period.”

 

“Not pregnant,” the test showed. My heart sank. The two words span my mind for the next few hours. Why am I so troubled? Whom am I kidding? Aside from the hardship of raising a child, I do enjoy my motherhood. Watching my child grow, learning how to monitor the child’s growth, educating myself about infant’s sleeping and eating habit, and have I mentioned the sunshine smiles on that little round and round face?

 

God wants all of me, including my time table. When He provides, He brings sufficient supply, materially, mentally, and spiritually. As my first child has taught me so much, I have to admit God has softened and shaped me greatly through these past few months. Make no mistake; growing pain is challenging, but fruits are worthy.

 

Once again, I raise my white flag. “May Your will be done in my life as You promised. May it be done to me as You will.” Faith does not equate to the absence of fear. Faith brings out courage and trust in the unseen, despite of the presence of fear and uncertainty. No, I do not have all the answers to all my questions. Even so, I choose to trust. What about you?