Today i am in low mood, with sadness wandering inside my heart. Last night, Linda forgot about our meeting and she didn’t call me which me make feel very sad. Our dinner had postponed for almost 2 months. Without having dinner with Linda, i just keep working in my office, i want to discuss with her, however i saw my boss start to notice other colleagus which really make me have some lossing feeling, seems i am going to loss of my boss’s love. These 2 women who have the power to hurt me, to make me feel very sad, just because they have the ma-ma character that make me project/put my love on them without any doubt, all i wish is they can give me some mother’s love. However, linda is not going to be my mother, while fannie she knows nothing, my relationship with her is just boss-staff. Our relationship sometimes would be easy, just like friend, sometimes with lots of conflict. She is my boss, i have to obey her.
Today i even have get angry with Fannie, which due to the distribution of orders, of course, she have to give me orders, and it is very normal, however some action that she is doing for me which make me feel sad/angry, i know she doesn’t want to put some much on my shoulder at a single time, so she just gives me 3 orders, but it is not the real no., some orders which also assigned to me, she helps me to arrange for handlooms, which make me feel uncomfortable, because ultimately this order is handled by me, i don’t why she is doing this for me, i think i can do it for myself. If she thinks i am not capable in handling those orders, pls don’t assigne to me, rather than you assign it to me, but you need to do for me. As i know, she also ask other colleague to do for me which make me even more angry......why? If you really think i can’t handle, why give me the order and asks others to do for me.
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