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東野圭吾的小說
                                                                               
很沉重
                                                                               
敘述因哥哥過失殺人的弟弟所承受的生活
                                                                               
放棄唱歌的夢想、放棄愛人
                                                                               
最後遇到同病相憐的人才正視現實
                                                                               
帶著「歧視」這個標籤過下去
                                                                               
最後因為女兒的遭遇，為她著想決定放棄跟哥哥連繫
                                                                               
決定放棄哥哥這個家人
                                                                               
裡面糖炒栗子的回憶很震撼，哥哥竟然為了糖炒栗子折返而不小心過失殺人

後來弟弟才澄清這不是他的童年回憶而是媽媽愛吃的
                                                                               
這是媽媽愛吃的食物，哥哥卻誤會這是他愛吃的才殺人
                                                                               
一場陰錯陽差
                                                                               
                                                                               
讀了心情不會好
                                                                               
因為太沉重
                                                                               
太現實、太黑暗
                                                                               
不過如果能撫慰此類遭遇的人倒是感化人心
                                                                               
                                                                               
說到讀書，其實我現在讀不下去
                                                                               
讀了好幾本都不是很投入
                                                                               
唯一有讀完而且有感覺的是九把刀的《殺手，流離尋岸的花》

文字很簡單、很精彩
                                                                               
其實說不上好不好看
                                                                               
可是很緊湊
                                                                               
我一下就讀完了
                                                                               
兩個小時吧，頂多三個小時吧
                                                                               
這大概是我近來少數能專心讀完的書
                                                                               
之前我症狀強的時候，連上電腦課的半個小時都坐不住
                                                                               
所以九把刀的書我很佩服
                                                                               
是不是有某種節奏在裡面呢
                                                                               
裡面的確沒有高深的道理、或非常強的文字
                                                                               
卻能吸引我看下去而且不會頭痛
                                                                               
不錯
                                                                               
不過純屬個人看法
                                                                               
不過世界上就是要有各種看法才好玩
                                                                               
                                                                               
再一提的是，我之前讀完白色巨塔
                                                                               
(說讀完其實後面有幾十頁沒讀，跳過直接看後面
                                                                               
到結局)
                                                                               
我發現我變得很冷血
                                                                               
因為里見醫生(在書裡屬正派值得敬仰的醫生)
                                                                               
救了一個七八十歲的老婆婆

為了她的癌症，四處奔走填表格
                                                                               
還幫她申請經費和好幾次檢查
                                                                               
我看完以後覺得：「為什麼要救這樣一個人呢？」
                                                                               
為什麼要花時間救一個七八十歲的老人，然後回去偏遠地區種田？
                                                                               
為什麼？值得嗎？
                                                                               
                                                                               
我不知道我的價值觀怎麼了
                                                                               
好像整個都偏差了
                                                                               
很黑暗
                                                                               
                                                                               
我看完也問我自己，為什麼這樣想
                                                                               
至今我仍沒有答案

以前我看完里見的故事一定會大哭一場，深受感動 結果這次  

(現在)唯一感動我的點是護士長願意出庭作證，而她老公也不 

畏強權跟賄賂堅持要她出庭 那邊我看得很感動 大哭一場     

深深地洗滌