活著的證明 離婁上﹒第二十三章 孟子曰：“人之患，在好為人師。” ***是誰在按推薦啊?!******

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作為一個失戀過的使徒
往往會去尋覓某些神蹟
亦或是前人們的隻字片語

在某些程度上Marianne Faithfull
最為人知的就是她和滾石合唱團主唱的一段情.而她在失戀後.酗酒.吸毒.
後來終於回到歌壇
但是她的聲音卻變的驚人的粗糙
那種彷彿是布萊希特筆下七大罪女主角
魔性的呢喃.很難不讓聽過的人留下深刻的印象.
她在今年出版了一張新的專輯
kissin time
裡面就有一首歌算是回首她的情字路
I'm on Fire
(Marianne Faithfull, William Patrick Corgan)
I'm on fire
When I was young
Just for you
And my heart was pure
Such desire
I only wanted love
I had allure
Still on fire
High heels ideals
And not much fear
My desire
It's easy
Still for you
To make love appear.

And then something sent me
For what they had meant to do
Whatever happened to you ?

I'm on fire
Happiness
just for you.
No more pain
Such desire

And love did come
But in such disguise —
That I could
Hardly recognise!

I'm on fire
So with trust in fate
Just for you.
And love of life
Such desire
Take my chance
Just for you.
Roll the dice.

And whatever sent me
I'll still be here for you.
Whatever happens, it's true.

And I'm standing still
Try to show the way
Try to change the stage.

I only had to find the key
Surely love would come to me
You'd look into my glittering eyes
And everything will be all right.

And so time passed.
I began to change.
I found that I
Could love again.

I'm on fire
At first it feels
just for you.
A little strange —
Such desire
Happiness
just for you.

受了傷的心終於在幾十年後
能寫出這等不恨不怨也不忘的歌.
這真的是件不簡單的事.
她因為這失戀的打擊到
今日能夠寫出如此洞悉人心的詞曲
是人生之必然乎?再回首.這個歷程是否為必經?這一期的當代就有一篇
類似這種命題的探討.
主要是在反駁史學家黃仁宇所認為的
"毛澤東土改政策是一歷史所經
不得不的必然".洋洋灑灑數頁.
他們關注於大情大愛.
我卻偷偷拿來類比兒女私情.
雖屬不該.但其精神卻是頗為類似.

沒人喜歡失戀.但是真該失戀的時候.
還是得來這麼X次.
失戀後.如果看喜歡的對象.
還是請唱I'm on Fire.
勇敢的往前衝吧!
(當然如果又失敗.我另有好歌相送....)

後記.黃仁宇在他那本自傳"黃河清山"我約略看完了幾次.只覺一個大學者花了那麼多篇幅寫他被解雇.書沒人要出版的雞皮蒜毛小事.心眼是有點小了.
再者.書裡面敢寫抱怨別人的篇幅.
卻要等他死後才出版.
膽子也是有點小了.