I've found it very difficult to stop the insecure feelings that fill up
my mind recently. It is always the distance that breaks our connection
apart. Thus, I can't guarantee any form of detachment of our bond in
the unknown future.
There is always an obscure area that we never never
understand deeply, nor can we explore it further. This is because once
we breach the border, we wil never get it back, it is pretty sad. I know
it's been three years, and three years can be short in terms of
studying or travelling. However, in terms of relationship developing,
it is tremendously long. yea..Waiting makes no sense only if it is not
for the right person. In other words, if there's always a person worth
waiting, then it's completely worth to do so, even longer and painful.
I know I have no rights to stick with you forever, even I want to,
notwithstanding I am eager to, really. It's really sad that the
stickiness seems not allowable....in terms of the social norms.
The eternity is impossible between us, in short.
At school, I see you from the apart, and I miss you on my way back to
home. I can only enjoy sex and feel your warmth in the dream where we hug tightly and
kiss ardently. I can only selfishly percieve your thoughtfulness when
we're in my room.
Indeed, I am lonely and dreary. I am really the one
who is eager to have your attention than anyone else....
I can stop missing you only by filling with some work to do, but I can never quit you by stop missing you.
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