Paradoxer A place fraught with conflicts, contraditions, and paradoxes...

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I was really sick for these days...
Not physically disabled...
But mentally crashed down...

Really sorry for those who called me or sent me messages in msn....
I didn’t mean it if I didn’t answer ur calls or reply to ur messages....
I was in such a great and unpresedented shock....
Suddenly I just wanted to lock myself inside my own time and space....
Just don’t want to face you guys in a hypocrite way....
I know I don’t like to treat u that way....coz u guys are really good....
Coz I know my shit face or negative emotion will influence u....
And just don’t know what I would do to others and even to myself....
Though to a certain extent I did....
Really sorry for those shits....
These days I was like an alive corpse walking on the street and working in the schools....
Thousands of scenery bumped into my mind, negative ones....when I read, rode, and did everything...
Don’t know how to release these god damn shits....

After adjusting myself for a period of time, I feel better now but still a bit unstable...
If I by accident rub somebody the wrong way, please forgive me....
And I really appreciate ur concerns....
Hopefully I can get through it as soon as possible....
Thanks anyway....
And hope I won’t lose my good qualities....