i’m difficult 情願兩忘，也不要再走進死蔭幽谷。

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Dear Amy,

I wish to thank you for your care all along. Though we do not see each other frequently, I enjoyed very much the time when we were hanging out. I, myself, also never thought that I would have been so disturbed by the scene of seeing her in the coffee shop the other night. Yet, I’m fine my dear. I just feel very disappointed on nobody but me for I seem to have done nothing right or good to me in the previous three years since graduation. I’m kind of in the dark with no light ahead to guide me out of this place.

Failing in getting the job I want and the man I loved made me feel so low about myself. I’m trying to figure out what’s wrong with me. Then, I suddenly awaken by recalling her face and I realized what I did wrong, or more correctly, so wrong. I was messing up with a man who was not supposed to be with me and will never belong to me, despite the so-called love that we once declared. I feel truly sorry about both her and me. Somehow, I am still not able to find a way to successfully forgive and forget. I really hate myself. I do.

I am leaving Hong Kong during this vacation and this is the first time that I wish I could never come back. I was reading a Love Letter written by a man who was deeply hurt in a relationship and here’s what he quoted,

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”

After reading it, I just thought “no wonder no one can accomplish the task of love.” And I realize what it is missing in the above and that is “love is wholehearted”.