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167愛的鼓勵 0訂閱站台

1月在不知不覺的狀態下,
突然的來到了.
一天天算著日子,期盼著一月的到來.
就像當初我預想的一樣,
接踵而來的人事物,
會讓這個月快點過去.
希望一月快點過去,
希望永遠停在二月.
不停的幻想著,到了美國的狀況,
心中想著,自己是否mature enough
to handle everything?
沒有了朋友的support and suggestion
will I do something stupid?
will I ruin all that?
3個月夠久了,long enough for both us forget the true feeling of each other...
eventhough we still have the fantazy of each other,
but the time will take that away,
it will fade away day by day, if I didn't go.
他知道我們即將見面,
他會期待嗎?應該會吧
現在,已經沒有任何多餘的腦子去想他
去幻想,假設會發生什麼狀況
如果他再show up in my msn,
I won't know how to talk to him,
或許我該稍稍做個練習
至少列出一些我應該可以講的話題
或是試著講出我心中想講的話
pancake,weekend stay over....
我不敢ask him if i can stay his place for the weekend,
but I do think if I really say that, that will be ok with him, as a friend, j.r. ask me to stay his place if I want.but I'm not goona do that, not if I meet him first...
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大約快要一個月沒與mob聯絡了,
因為他回家3個禮拜的關係
最近的心情很亂
明明知道自己很多事情該做
卻又放在一旁不肯作
懷疑自己像是今天演的艾莉一樣瘋狂
難道雙魚真的就是這樣為了愛不顧一切嗎
自己真的很無聊,每天想同一件事
寫同樣的話,在這裡所寫的東西
連自己都沒勇氣再看過
這次見到他,告訴自己不要太膽小
敢作敢講，別一付小女孩的樣子
不要一見他就緊張的不敢對他開玩笑
he seens like really good at this..
但是他也會有害羞的時候,呵呵
我們還會再牽手嗎
冬天牽手，不會流汗
冬天很冷,可以擁抱
是這樣的吧
雖然冬天的衣服穿的比夏天多
但夏天濕濕黏黏的連牽個手都會由原本的熱情轉為黏膩,
浪漫的感覺都被破壞光了
冬天呢,手腳一向冰冷的我,
會得到他的溫暖嗎
he don't want have any too closer relationship with the wonwan at the first, but kiss won't count as the closest relationship right?
and that's all I won't, just a kiss....maybe I'll get nothing...who knows...
I wish I can see u right away...right now, at 1 o'clock in the morning........
I'm goona go work out, get fit, get shape...get everything well and see you.........