昨天與JEFF在外面跑了一整天
先見了一個AGENT
她的人給人感覺很好 感覺很直得信任
而且當聽到他說她也在美國待過
加上她率直的個性
讓我們兩個都頗為讚賞
她披頭就問我跟jeff的關係
後來她自己提到她前男友的事
形容的就像我跟mo一樣
是否我們的夢中情人
只有在國外比較容易找到?
下午我們飆車到環亞
jeff現在開始學會虧我 故意不載我
下午跟另一個agent 聊一聊也覺得今天頗充實
發現自己對於自己的未來
還算滿有前景與思考的
Jeff就說他沒想到這麼多
現在跟他愈來愈熟
像是很好的partner加上good friend
其實 自己enjoy與男人相處
也許是一種可以讓人照顧撒嬌的感覺吧
即使是朋友 感覺跟女人相處不一樣
個有不同的感覺
也都喜歡
現在跟90妹妹很好
每天上班也覺得有個寄託
晚上在去gym的路上
打了電話給ref
他似乎很upset that I go to gym today and tomorrow
一直說星期五我有空但你要去gym
他可能不爽我這幾個星期五都有自己的事吧
他之前不也都這樣
現在角色互換 換我在看我心情做事了嗎
但當我問到他星期六要做什麼時
他有點支支吾吾的說他晚上有一個bbq要去
而且講的一副就是他要自己去的意思
我聽了覺得有點奇怪
隨口問他 你跟誰去阿 with who?
他才說出是跟joan和他的家人
f….
是怎樣 你竟然答應要跟他們一起過中秋
那你之前看到我寫的e-mail是看假的嗎
我跟你說我星期六要跟你hang
你是當眼邊風嗎 你清楚的很不是嗎
那你幹麻還跟她約
開始懷疑你們的關係不太尋常
你真的很奇怪
後來你又一直說你可以cancel
既然這麼容易cancel你為何又要答應
我跟你說我把所有事都推到save this weekend for you
你才一直說我們一起去看表演
我其實才不想看什麼表演呢
祇是跟你說人家問我去我把他推掉而已
而當我們講到最後
你說joan有invite me,if I don’t believe you can call her.
這又是什麼樣的狀況,
你想找我去見你前女友及他的家人
你是頭殼壞掉了嗎 還是你腦子有問題
我真的搞不懂你
我跟你說 I don’t want to go.
你repeat my words,----u don’t want to go.
我說I don’t feel like to go,it’s strange.i don’t know them
你竟然跟我說見了就會認識了阿
你是豬頭嗎 我為什麼要跟你去見他和他的家人
讓人家對你的心女友品頭論足嗎?
J我怎麼知道你在他們面前透露的多少我的事
我怎麼知道你在跟他是怎麼討論我
而你們現在接觸的這麼頻繁 甚至中秋節還要一起過
我跟j都還沒這樣ㄌㄟ 到底是怎樣
明明對你就沒什麼感覺
但想到這種事 還是忍不住一肚子氣
當我跟你說我覺得去見他們會讓我覺得不自在
覺得很奇怪 你一副我很奇怪很小心眼的口氣
我跟你說如果我找你去見我的前男友及他的家人 你一定也會覺得奇怪
你說你會覺得很棒跟家一起玩
bo shit,我才不相信
上次讓你突然在餐廳見到jeff你就一直耿耿於懷
跟你提過j跟爹還有工作上的關係
你也一直問東問西
what the hell I’ll believe u don’t mind at all?
原本以為睡了一個晚上已經忘了這件事
現在還是愈想愈氣
真的搞不懂你在想什麼
我跟你說我們兩個現在都還沒在一起
你真的是豬頭
帶你正在交往的女生去見你的前女友及他的家人
我會怎麼想 你覺得很直得炫燿你交到一個女友
或是即使你覺得我不錯想介紹給他們認識
但你不曾想過我的心情嗎
那是怎麼樣的場面
我根本不想見你的前女友及任何人
光是看照片就夠了
I don’t want to see the action figure
想到如果跟你親密一點時
就會想到你們之前發生過同樣的情形
是應該也跟他說我們要一起出國的事吧
愈想愈生氣
想把你的腦袋挖開
看看你到底在想什麼
我懶的理你了
我們真的不適合
也許你覺得我很好 但這樣被我鬧了幾次
你應該也煩了吧 知道我有多歡了吧
REF,
you didn't call me tonight,I think you must forgot or too tired or somthing.
actually I have something need to talk to you,
but seems we can't talk in the phone,so before I forget,I just write you for now.
I feel that I really don't understand you at all,
I can't figure out why would you ask me to meet Joan and her family today?
that is really strange of you.
I don't mind and don't care if you two still see each other,
but ask me to meet her and "her family",
that's really awkward and strange.
we are not even together,we just dating now,
how dare you ask your date to meet your exgf and her family??
don't you care how I feel?
I don't think you will be comfortable if you meet my exbf and HIS family
that just too awkward.
and since we've met,
you keep bring me to meet bunch of ur friends, colleagues,relatives and many many people.
I don't mind to meet one or two of ur friends at a time,
but group of them...I don't like that.
because I don't feel like I know you well enough,
so how can I join ur conversation?
many times I'm just being so isolate and bored,
and you knew that.
eventhough you "tried to" take care of me,
but you still can feel that doesn't work.
that because we don't know each other well enough,
so I'll feel uncomfortable with bunch of ur friends or relatives.
and this time,I can't believe you would ask me to meet ur exgf and her family,
how are u going to introduce me to them?
your girlfriend?I don't think so.
and how would you expect me to be comfortable with them as you guys known each other for so long,
can I join the conversation? no one will know.
yes,as you said, maybe meet them and I'll know them,
but what if I get so bored again?
expecially in this "special" relationship you guys had.
it might end up I'm not seeing you anymore.
how dare you to take the chance?
and how can you not be so thoughtful to think of that?
when I talk to u in the phone today,
you sounds like I'm so small-minded to fuss about this.
go ask you friends,
should you bring your "date" to meet your "exgf" and "her family"?
if the answer is positive,
then I don't think we are right for each other,
because none of my friends and family think that's normal.
and the other thing is,
you didn't ask me to go bbq with you at the first,
it's when I asked you who you go with and then you told me,
and you said you can cancel it,
then u said joan invite me.
if she invite me why don't u tell me in the first place?
if I didn't ask,then what?
and when I worte to you that we can meet this weekend,
if you want to go out with me, why did u agree to go bbq with her,and then cancel it?
all these things make me so confuse.
if that just your trick to upset me,then yes, I'm really upset about all this mess,
if u didn't mean it,then I still upset that you are so unthoughtful.
you might be upset about me now,
if so, I think we really not right for each other.
not even together we already fight so many times.
我想我寫的夠明白了
還是想到就氣
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