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167愛的鼓勵 0訂閱站台

心中開始對他有許許多多的疑問
很想一次問清楚
愈來愈覺得
這個男人 也許 真正需要的不是一個女友
只是也許在生命中 必須要有個女友
必須要有個婚姻
才是對自己完美的人生有所交代
他 一定很清楚自己要的是什麼
但對我來說
一個事業有成 加上一向獨立貫的人來說
他是否真的需要一個屬於自己家
還是他早已忘了家的感覺
我感到震驚
當他告訴我
他在台灣的這麼多年
他所租的房子 裡面用的家具
幾乎都是房東附的
我沒有辦法想像
一個人可以這樣的習慣在不屬於自己的空間裡生活的這麼久
而當他搬離每個家 對這些使用過的家具不帶一絲情感的就搬離去
這樣的男人
令我害怕
我可以了解一個在異地生活的人
不想帶著太多不必要的東西
搬來搬去
但 這樣的做法
也顯示了他不把這裡當成一個長久的歸屬之地
這也是其中一個讓我覺得他不需要女友的一個原因吧
也許 我真的該好好的跟他談談
了解他心中真正的想法
我該問他 教過幾個女友
每一段戀情都持續多久
他對家與婚姻的感覺
我想 在他的生命中
他是期待有自己的小孩的吧
他 有著太多令我不確定與害怕的地方
也許我們根本就是一條平行線
我想問他
where is the home for you?
a house is not a home,
where do u think it's a home for you?
how many year you been here in taiwan?
5 years? do u think here it's a home for you?
or just a place for you to stay?
i remember last time you told me,
you didn't buy many furniture urself,
all the furniture you have,are form the landload,
I wonder,everytime when you move out? have you ever feel anything for the place you been stay for a long time,and the furniture,the bed,the sofa you've been use for a long time?
will u miss the house or the furniture?
or you just use it as a stuff they supossto be?

do u know what i mean?
when i in the u.s.,
i don't buy many furniture myself,
cos i know i'm not going to stay for too long.
but after few years, i feel like there is another home for me.
i got more and more stuff each time when I move out,
I carry more and more stuff not just a stuff but it's something I have to carry with me.
what about you?
when last time you told meyou move out, and you looking for a furnish house,
and you said you never want to buy any furniture,
the way you said it, don't have any emotional in it..make me felt curel....
i don't know.....
anyway