Dear Lovage,
After so much talking about X, I began to really doubt whether I knew him as well as I thought I did.
Strangely, for the past few days I'd been remembering my old time crushes, and it was not X that had been on my mind. It was the blueroom bloke. A little story has been hovering on my mind for days, but it never came to a complete writing project, so I left it.
However, it's just that he had this amazingly gentle and radiant smile on his face as he came up the stairs, and my heart was touched and I fell in the mood for love.
Now, what is a crush?
In Oxford Advanced Learner's, it is when you imagine to be in love with somebody...
The definition by Chamber's, however, goes thus, "a) an amorous passion, usually an unsuitable one; an infatuation; b) the object of such an infatuation.
I think a crush never goes anywhere. When it does go somehwere, we have a different word to name it and to feel it by. I personally think a crush is less than an infatuation, but what's the difference, eh? Hence, my advice, if this is likely at all, is to just enjoy the imagination. After all, it's either imagination, infatuation, or else it is the 'bud' of something bigger. And if it is the bud of something else... You won't have total control. You can't ask it to open fully for you alone, nor to nip it in the bud.
Only when it's all in your head you have total control.
No worries. You'll find out soon enough.
love, p
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