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Why is it that you all turn out to be less than I had expected? Or am I the one at fault for expecting too much?

Why is it that whatever attracted me to you fades so fast, and all that there is left becomes purely physical?

I don't want sex!

No that's not true, I do want sex, but I don't want mindless sex anymore! It's confusing and unsatisfying!

I want to feel I can respect you, be in awe of your presence and possibly love you! I don't want cheap sex that leaves me feeling more empty afterwards, like I don't know the person lying next to me at all! Like I don't know what I'm doing, or whether I'll ever feel satisfied again!

It's gotten to the point that I can not get there anymore, I feel no passion, no desire, and frankly technique is just not enough!

Arrrgh! So frustrating!

Shoud I stop dating you? Should I stop this now or let it fade by default? Would you be more fun to hang around as a friend? Or should I give up my imagined perfection of you and start accepting you as this flawed person, just like myself?

Am I ever to feel true happiness and to pour out my whole heart for someone again?

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