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Morning, everyone!

現在是兩千零一年十一月二十一日
大家有沒有覺得十月好像是慢慢的過，但是十一月卻咻一下就快接近月底
好像十一月對地球很不耐煩，想快快離開

ok!
現在是早上10:31分
今天的曼城濕濕冷冷，好像在飄著雨
窗外有噠噠噠電鑽機的聲音，大概是停車場的施工吧！我猜

早晨在床上賴了十五分鐘後
起床刷牙、洗臉、洗頭、沖澡
裹著浴巾從shower出來時在走廊上被蘇聯室友，Dina，嚇了一跳
早餐是五分之一杯柳橙汁再加上一杯序利亞室友，Huda，的濃縮果汁
牛奶不夠了，所以沒有辦法吃玉米片
替代的是一顆蘋果再加上一片抹了厚厚的奶油加草莓醬的土司

呼～
今天早晨的音樂：
關掉了從昨晚就一直放的Mogwai
先是一首甜美的The cure “Galore”專輯裡的第二首『 Catch 』
接下來是 The Puresence “ Only Forever”的第三首『 It Doesn’t Matter Anymore』
這是來到英國後第二次放這首歌
恩。。好有道理的一首歌
就像我會一遍又一遍反覆的閱讀村上春樹試圖去找出不過是字與字的連結，到底是什麼那那裡面那麼那麼的吸引我
這首歌對我有相同的作用
到底是什麼樣的能量/力量/力氣？？能夠把某種感覺/經歷/事件？？
寫出得那樣精準
是可以說服自己的理由？

我聽了一遍又一遍，想了無數次
卻想不出個所以然，只是關不掉的音樂一遍又一遍的持續反覆

IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE

Well, you started by yourself
And then you lived with someone else
But you can't go back the way it was before
And I can see it in the eyes,
I just know when things aren't right
And now nothing seems to matter anymore

It doesn't matter anymore (x4)

Well, how does it feel when you're on your own bed now
How does it feel, when I'm on my own terms now
I'm going all the way, yeah
I don't care what you say, no way

No way (x2)

Well, you started out as one
Another one made twice the fun
But you tried to do some digging and got buried
Well, it's happened twice before
And you know it'll happen more
And now I can't feel my legs like I'm being carried

It doesn't matter if I try counting out on all my fat fingers,
Where am I supposed to go?
I tried hang around with all the dead ringers,
People I used to know

Tell me how does it feel when you're on your own bed now
How does it feel, when I'm on my own terms now
Going all the way, yeah
And I don't care what you say

Just don't you know that I started again (x2)
And if I didn't have you, I'd have to pretend
When nothing is right, where do I go
What do I say, and who do I know

It doesn't matter anymore (x4)
(try counting out on all my fat fingers)