so you want to get to know a little more about me? are you sure that's such a good idea? won't that kind of ruin the mystery? wouldn't getting to know me better just destroy what it is that you think I could be? I have a theory about relationships. In the beginning, there is a certain kenetic energy that people feel around eachother... an energy that comes from seeing this strange person, and being attracted to them... where you think, what is this person like? could this person be "the one" TRUE love of my life? is this person the kind of person I'm looking for? In addition, when together, you kiss for the first time, you see a movie for the first time together, you hold hands for the first time, you feel the touch of the other person's skin for the first time... all these are magical moments in a relationship. Like that time kissed in the car... the way I felt afterwards was!
euphoric... like I was floating on a cloud afterwards... it was truly a magical moment, where the earth seemed to stop spinning, life stood still, and everything around us went dark, because all that mattered was that single moment, in that car, with you, with me.
From my experience, that feeling goes away, because you get to know what it is that you like about that person, and then you also get to know what it is that you don't like about that person. It almost makes me want to hold back on you, and not let you get to know me too soon, but instead just slowly inch our way into something, even if it is just a fleeting moment that we spend together, it should all be magical. I'm afraid that once you get to know me, you might not see the magic. that the passion of first kisses would dissappear.
Is any of this making sense? I know you're probably thinking, "come on, stop over analyzing the situation". It's not over analyzing... I'm going with the flow... but I want more from my relationships than just to pass the time... I want to feel alive, enlightened with passion and love and deep longing to be with someone...
I don't think that my accounting mind can do this feeling I have any poetic justice... but I hope you understand what it is I'm getting at. I'm afraid of not getting that magical feeling. This is what we call a "hang-up" or "excess baggage". so what? so I've got issues with fear, so does everyone else in this world, and those that deny it are not
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