好久好久没有上来了阿。
其实中间也上来过几次。但是顿时脑袋一片茫然，就像因为太兴奋而顿时失语一样感觉郁闷。今天不想讨论任何事情。
只是因为经常错过写东西的时间，偶尔灵光闪现的东西似乎也因此而消逝不见了呢。
但是这是一件好事了。说明很多事情我都能够隐忍下来，不需要再愤懑的上新闻台泄愤了。
就像花朵突然无声蔓延，我无端流下眼泪。花如长卷，泪影婆娑。
喧嚣声继续在耳边响着，心中却因此而感到一片的宁静。突然毅然决然地骂了一句粗话，心情烦躁起来。不知道自己想做些什么的无序感让我感到恐慌。开始大量地买回canyon的1.5L水，拧开盖子，平均每五秒喝一口。
这样的日子一直持续到现在，当是时我正在看着异常难听的歌曲平静着写着这一篇异常想吐的文章。有人这样说过么，land is a ship too big for me，也许我并不属于这样的陆地。这是太大的船，让我遥遥惶惶，不知所措。我要寻找那个纯净的世界，里面只有单纯的人。在我想来，单纯的人也就是那些往往会令人生厌的家伙吧。
并不排除有些很懦弱又或者是很随和的人。他们只想活在自己虚构的空间里，认为自己了解世界认为自己操纵着别人的感觉的人。那并不虚伪。那并不可耻。
忽然想起jacques的话，然后觉得领悟了很多。他一个那么温和的人偶尔也会说出几句难得的刻薄又动听的话来。
那天我是跟谁说过来着。
那个经典的电影。经典的就像现在的莉莉周一样。
是很少年的电影呵。海上钢琴师。
是错觉么。总觉得那个少年就活在我身旁。
Moonlight city. You just couldn’t see an end to it.
It wasn’t what I saw that stopped me ,Max.
It was what I didn’t see.
Take the piano.
Keys begin. Keys end.
You know there are 88 of them.
They’re not infinite. You’re infinite.
And on those keys, the music that you can make is infinite.
I like that. That I can live by.
But you get me up on that gangway, and you roll them out
in front of me.
Keyboards have millions and billions of keys that never end.
That keyboard is infinite.
Then on that keyboard there’s no music you can play.
That’s God’s piano.
Did you see the streets?
There’re thousands of them.
How do you choose just one?
One woman, one house, one way to die…….
You don’t even know where it comes to an end.
Aren’t you ever just scared of breaking apart with the
thought of it?
I was born on this ship.
And the world passed me by.
But 2000 people at a time and there’re old wishes here .
But nevermore that fit between prow and stern..
You played out your happiness bit on a piano that was not
infinite.
I learned to live that way.
Land?
Land is a ship too big for me,
It’s a woman too beautiful, a bridge too long, perfume to
strong, music I don’t know how to play.
I can never get off this ship.
At best, I didn’t step off my life.
After all, I don’t exist for anyone.
-the LEGEND of 1900
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