I have a dream which most of people think its too far-reached;
I have a dream with which experts regard as derailed goal
considering what I have been doing.
Maybe its the timing of being alone here and no the other half to be attached to. Maybe its the top lawyer, M, sudden direction change in career from Law to Engineer in order to achieve his life-term goals of immigrating to Australia. Maybe its the actor, P, being in the middle age but still throw himself into the academic field only to learn more about his passion for ocean. Maybe its the fear of losing my freedom if I am in Taiwan.
I am not young any more; but I am not old yet.
I am not completely unattached; but I am still single.
I am not financially independent; but I have fortune of family love.
I am not intelligent mastering in many things; but I have love for minority.
During the Kosenrufu gongyo at Hilda's last Sunday (chanting for world peace),
I felt a strong and crystal clear of vision that I can do it.
The next day, I took action and initiated whatever I can do to proceed my dream.
I may not super young, but I am entitled to my dream :)
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More, 6 years ago we heard that Italian Alexandra had a dream to do volunteer work in Africa. In order to do that, he had been taken training course and passing the driving test of ambulance van. After 6 whole long years, not only does he get married to Scottish Natalya, he is also about to visit Africa this month for the work he has been working on. How amazing it is to persist in your dream, steadily work on it and not even the marriage could stop him from getting there. This really aspires me a lot. If a 40-something can do it, why can't I?
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This dream takes me more than 3 years to achieve. I have to devote myself into the voluntary work this year during my thesis correction; then using this work experience to apply for a placement-involved training course. This takes another two years; but surely I know myself would be so enjoying in it without a fuss of how exhausted it could be. The internship/placement would be putting myself into working with the specific group which is my aiming target (people on A.S.). With this practice, then I would be entitled and benefiting the most from the certificate course for A.S education.
These in total need my three years of youth, of time and potentially could sabotage my relationship with Mr.Right (D) if he could not be patient enough to support my dream. Everything is slotting into the right direction; but I have to be brave, confident and convincing to the ones I love and to the ones love me. Let people know I want this!
"Freedom doesn't mean the absence of all restrictions. It means possessing unshakable conviction in the faces of any obstacles. This is true freedom" (encouragement by President Ikeda).
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I paid a very short visit to the course leader's office (the tough and intelligent woman in my current field of profession). After a brief chitchat, out of blue I shared with her my plan. She is the first authority I share about my dream in career. I thought it would be perceived as a naive idea, especially the next step is more of a step down a level. Moreover, everything I have been doing would seem to be a waste. However, she thinks the opposite. She regards this as a brilliant idea for my career and she believes out of all people I am the one having this quality (patience and good with people relationship) in life to fit in that career. In stead of taking it with a sigh, she brands this dream as complementary to my PhD degree. Even though I still don't know how it would be a complementary route, I am very thrilled to know that I have her support and her offer of reference letter when it is needed.
Despite the course is full for this academic year, this intelligent tough woman-figure really gives me hope, aspiration and belief in myself that I can do it!
