Fan bro, it has been a tough journey, and road ahead might be bumpy as well, but that's what life is about, ups and downs. I saw your determination to be on track again, and I know you can do it, it's just a matter of time. I promise to stand by you for as long as you need, for that's what I promised darling.
It's OK that you can't catch up with your peers for now, it's OK to lost some friends along the way... they are passers-by in your life, they come and they go. Fate if it's meant to be, you will meet again somewhere in life. If not, they are are God-sent to deliver message to you. It's OK that some peers couldn't feel what you went through, they are not obligated to.
Though darling couldn't be with us anymore, she taught us valuable lessons, isn't it? We will move on together, with her legend close at our hearts.
You did a good job, picking yourself up at your on pace, albeit baby steps everyday. I'm looking forward to see that dashing and confident Fan again.